Life of a mice

分手

2010-09-11T19:11:00.000+08:00

从一开始的互不熟悉，到如今的彼此了解；
从一开始浅薄的想念，到如今深深的眷恋；
从最初很在意在你面前的形象，到现在的毫无顾忌；
从当初的不知道该怎么爱你，到现在不知道该如何分离。
一路走来，经历了很多，我们也都付出了很多。

如果.....
如果我们真的分手，
你会怎样？
如果我们分手了，
我一定会感到很寂寞无助，
耍性子闹脾气的时候会感到闷得慌，
电话短信都不知道该发给谁。

如果我们分手了，
我一定会恨自己的自以为是，
原本总以为，
不管我们交错多少次，
总可以再找到时间地点，
重新牵起彼此的手，
可却只是自己的一厢情愿罢了。

如果我们分手了，
在一起那些痛苦的记忆会无限缩小甚至蒸发，
而幸福的回忆却只会日益膨胀，
到最后甚至忘记为什么分手，
仅仅只是想你，
想你，
想你。

如果我们分手了，
就算删掉你的手机号码，
我一定还是能倒背如流，
在夜深人静的时候红着眼眶，
慢慢按下那些键，
却始终找不到理由拨出去，
即使你淡出我的生命，
却仍然占据我的记忆。

如果我们分手了，
我会把你送给我的东西，
写给我的文字，
统统藏起来，
然后在夜深人静的时候不断拿出又放好，
想看又不敢再碰触。

如果我们分手了，
我一定还是不会删掉那些照片，
摘掉那根红绳，
因为曾经的每一次争吵都让它们来来去去，
可是这一次如果我删了，
我delete了，
它们就不再回来了。

如果我们分手了，
我不想再看见你，
因为我害怕那时的你在我的眼前，
我还是想牵牵你，
抱抱你，
亲亲你，
但是我已经没有资格了。

如果我们分手了，
我还是想你和你做朋友，
这样在我想你的时候，
我可以想着还能找你，
虽然我也许并不会这么做。

如果我们分手了，
我一定会害怕出门，
因为无论到哪里，
都有我们的回忆，
背着我牵着我到处乱逛的你，
看着我流泪会陪我一起伤心的你，
陪着我发疯陪着我快乐的你，
几乎把所有的零花钱都花在我身上的你，
因为给我准备了惊喜而自己开心半天的你，
在凛冽的寒风又或者飘泊的雨中还是会等我的你，
因为我乱玩，乱吃东西，胡作非为而大发雷霆的你，
每一次都被我搞的崩溃却依旧每一次都原谅我包容我来找我的你。

遍地留下了自己的痕迹，
最后却跑掉的你。
如果，

如果，
如果我们真的分手，
我一定不想的。

请记得，
如果我们分手了，
我还是等你的电话，
回你的短信，
在你需要我或是想见我的时候出现，
你是我的独家记忆，

一直在心底。

love u, habi

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Cold day

2010-09-10T13:02:00.003+08:00

I'll just pretend to hug u, until u get here....

today whole day was such a good weather...

because is was raining and cold cold wind...

but i wish tat i can hugging u in this cold cold weather...

it make me miss those time...

hidding in blanket together....

Your hugs are the best ever....

is the feel tat i can never forget...

the way u hug me tight..

is was just like afraid of me will dissapear..

it make ppl feel sweet and warm....

hope tat someday the hug will be back together.....

i will be waiting...

love u, habi

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HeartXXX

2010-09-10T02:04:00.005+08:00

Today finally saw u wif him liao....

The feel of looking at u wif him...

is so hard to find a word to describe

totally cant breathe at all....

it was like u fall from the top of the sky to the ground...

the painful is cant be imagine....

it was like ur body break into many many many part....

love u, habi

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Final exam

2010-09-09T13:04:00.002+08:00

Have anyone see me will stress for en exam before?

totally not really...

even is also is just worry abit abit tat will fail anot....

This time is the first time i feel so stress for my exam...

It really make me stress till cant breath and cry for it....

There was so many thing i dun noe in this sem de subject

im totally blank...

i feel so scare....

I tot to find someone to study together...

but i cant really find dao one to study together...

i keep try hard to focus...

but still alot of thing in my mind keep distract me....

Im feel so helpless now.....

Im feel so lost now.....

im also thx for someone tat willing to chat wif me yesterday....

habi....

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Night

2010-09-09T03:42:00.002+08:00

I hate to stay in my room alone...

The feel is so scary...

It make ppl feel helpless...

Feel lost...

I hate the feel...

Tat why recently mostly i spend my night at keep walking and walking at outside...

keep visit to westlake...

To shop lot

or even sha sha de stand downstair u

i just dun want to go back to my room...

>.< T.T
Sry...

really cant control my feel anymore...

even tot i keep telling to myself

i stil fail to do it...

i still is hug u jor....

i really dun want u to go...

just hope u to be my habi 4ever....

love u, habi

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Memories

2010-09-08T20:04:00.002+08:00

Never mind

2010-09-08T16:14:00.002+08:00

How many ppl really can understand the feel of Never Mind????

我原谅你喜欢上了别人，因为爱情是自由的。

我原谅你对我的忽视，因为爱情需要宽容。

我原谅你的所有的错，因为我爱你。

我曾经说的‘无所谓’，其实都是在掩饰内心的孤独与寂寞，只是你未曾注意过。

很在意你，在意到让我害怕，所以找个借口让自己不陷下去。

所有的“无所谓”都是因为太在乎，

你可曾知道？即使分手，也还是会想起你的好。

这些全都在我的意料之外，但不后悔。

谢谢你曾经带给我的感动，谢谢！

“无所谓”，看似简单的三个字，却隐藏了好多难以让人发现的东西。

那种心理……无法言语…… 明明很在乎，明明心很痛，却要装作无所谓。

需要多大的承受力啊。

也许伪装才能看清一切，伪装才能保护自己。

说出一句“无所谓”需要很大的勇气。

隐藏的脆弱，掩埋的孤寂，几人能看清？

也许真的“无所谓” ……

无所谓的心酸，

无所谓的孤寂，

无所谓的人生，

因为太“所谓”而“无所谓”。

“无所谓”--一种无法言语的痛!

8sept10

2010-09-08T15:47:00.004+08:00

At the end....

Today me still is go to find u liao...

Im really too miss u liao...

But i still is didnt manage to see dao ah bii them....

For the first time..

we chit chatting by sitting outside ur house de staircase....

it really feel good to have a chat wif u..

it just like we usually chat like tat...

the feel is so warm....

U say got how much happy then will have how much sadness...

but i dun think so...

i do believe it not balance de....

cause i will try my best to let u have happiness more than sadnesss many many many..

until when u compare u will realise the sadness is just a so small de part....

i hope tat ur life is full of happiness....

I noe everytime exam coming

u also will study till very stress and pik chik de...

i so hope i can beside u...

calm u down

help u massage....

even is u want to talk like scold ppl...

just release ur negative mood...

i will accept it all...

at least make u feel better abit..

so tat u can have a better mood to continue ur stuy...

i noe u very worry and panic now

i noe u scare ur cgpa will drop again....

No matter wat...

dun push urself too over k?

must have enough rest and drink more water and eat....

so tat u r full of energy to study...

whenever u feel too stress...

u can find me anytime...

i will be there for u anytime...

habi

Gd luck for ur study and all the best....

u got my support...

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有种想见不能见的伤痛♥

2010-09-08T12:42:00.004+08:00

Miss.....
I do miss alot of thing now...
I miss every moment tat spend together wif u...

miss study together...
miss cook and eat together...
miss take care of hamster together...
miss the time we chatting....
miss the time we hang out together....

miss the day we wearing the same watch

There are so many thing i want to tell u...
There are so many thing i want to done wif u...
There are so many place i want to go wif u...
There are so many food i want to cook for u...

50days...

maybe is just a very short period...

but for me i do feel like we have go through alot of thing...

this is the most happy moment...

u r the one save me out from my fear...

and now i still believe tat u will be the one....

so the ticket will waiting u to collect someday without expired day

I noe u have decide to give the chance to who...

just so hope tat u can rethink...

even just for a moment also feel glad....

i will keep all the promise tat i promise to u

no matter is when we together de those

after we break up de...

hope this time u keep ur promise too....

i believe u....

Love u, habi

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Waiting

2010-09-07T19:38:00.000+08:00

Phone never rang again
Ur msg is lesser and lesser
how many night
i was feel so lonely
how many night
my tear drop for u
I didnt find u often already
It doesnt mean i forget or dun care anymore
Is just im waiting silently

I noe should not disturb u...
Just sometime cant hold on anymore
Wat i feel now is
feel Lost
feel Scare
feel Lonely
feel Unsecure

Im back

2010-09-07T19:01:00.002+08:00

Really been a long long period didnt come updated my blog jor...
Really alot of thing happen recently...
Happy de
Sad de
Heartbroken de
stress de
It was too too alot...
but now mainly is unhappy de thing....
somemore is almost my final now...
is trying hard to focus on my revision....
it make me like cant breath at all....

and i realise something...
there was really not much luck in my whole life
but no matter how bad luck am i
God...
i just wish tat this time u give me luck and win this time...
i beg u...
i noe i never believe in god
but for this time... i do...
i pray to u.... thx

Sem break is coming too liao...
but i hate the sem break
nth to do while sem break
then sure will thk this thk tat
this sem break going to suffer alot too...
tot can go trip wif u...
i even have plan for it already..
but thing just happen... >.<

亲爱的

2010-05-14T01:40:00.002+08:00

走你常走的路，去你常去的地方。仿佛你还在身边。
影子是我现在的状态。。

当心再次原意全心接受一人时，却也是你离开的时候。。

亲爱的，好想好想你，好想好想累的时候能抱抱你……

陌生与绝情的眼神

2010-05-11T02:01:00.001+08:00

如果问我，什么眼神是最恐怖的？
是魔鬼的眼神？凶残的眼神？还是绝望的眼神？
我会答。。是绝情的眼神，一对绝情又陌生的眼神。。
当他/她决定放弃这段感情时，他/她决回不再应为任何理由而向你转回头
在他/她的眼神里展示的眼神，是你从来没看过的。。
一对从她眼里看不出有任何关于你和她存在的眼神。。
一对令你感觉好像从来不曾认识她的眼神。。
一对令你知道再多的努力也挽回不了她的眼神。。
一对令你感觉她的心亦没有你的存在的眼神。。
一对将来的你发生什么事而她也不想管的眼神。。
那种感觉，就像过往你们的一切一切，
在一刹那间可以直接从她的记忆里删除得一干二净。
难道以往的感情可以那么容易忘记？还是她的眼神出卖了你。。
其实是她不愿再让自己心软，心软的放弃她想决定的决定。。
为了她自己的幸福，她宁愿让自己出卖自己的眼神
也不让自己的眼神出卖自己的幸福。。

但她永远不知道。。
他的眼泪，留着的是。。
曾经是她和他幸福的眼神。

CSM

2010-04-13T04:28:00.002+08:00

recently really alot of thing happen..
midterm not good..
busy moving house...
and the most sad thing is u say break up...
i really dunno wat to say...
and i noe nth could change u...
course u r just so similar wif someone..
and make me remind of tat person..
i noe i cant do anything...
but just hope tat really have some miracle..
and i will willing to pay anything for the miracle.

Final is coming...
i think i should be made a decision and force myself to study hard for final...
banned all unnecessary thing..
i want to get a good result

mice

2009-12-15T13:37:00.000+08:00

真的能如此容易说抛开一切
就真的的抛的一干二净吗。。
无论再如何忘记，
总是会有一些残留的。
毕竟真心付出过。
但这不代表会对新任的不公平，
只要你肯定你是真心爱她/他的。

Stupid KTM

2009-12-10T04:50:00.002+08:00

Monday me, kenny and thomas taking ktm back to kampar
from kl to kampar is 2hour 30min...
but u noe tat day how much time we use???
5hour 30min...
Omg.. is so so pik chik of it...
when we reach kl sentral...
it anounce train delay 45 min but act is 1hour
then when reach till half way the train stop jor for while
when the train reach sungkai de station...
it spoil jor....
OMG.. how can such thing happen...
there will have a train from singapore to butterworth
and we need to wait 1hour+++ almost 2hour
then we need to stand some more....
they tot we sit the train for free is it???
this is the service we get after paying RM20???
and my friend always take train back here also always kena delay
the longest is 1hour30min
never tot tat i will be more longer....
if not then here wont call malaysia anymore....
next time take bus better

Pc Fair + Movie

2009-12-10T04:08:00.002+08:00

Sunday me, kenny and thomas went to kl pc fair
this is the 1st time i when to pc fair..
even though im kl ppl... haha
course nothing to buy also...
just free then acc friend go lo...
never tot tat the ppl will such alot...
and the num of employer those company hired are amazing...
there is sososososo many...
especially broadband...
really is a good experience.....

After tat we take ktm went to serdang to go the mines
course kenny relative is selling phone at there...
and kenny phone is spoil due to fall into longkang...
keke...
kenny aunt is so good...
even help to repair my phone for free..
so paiseh la..
then we go buy ticket for ninja assassin....
the cinema is TGV de...
honestly i not so like TGV..
i more prefer GSC...
but ipoh weird abit...
those ppl feel tat TGV is more high class de...
dunno why...
when we go for the movie...
it start diplay islam de thing..
then we start thinking is it go in the wrg room... haha
course many malay in the cinema too... haha
then many ppl start going out..
and those inside keep shouting and scoulding
who noe is the cinema play the wrong movie...
Lol... tat why la....
next time go GSC better
course got 1901 also... haha

穷

2009-12-03T12:52:00.002+08:00

穷
也许是因为上世你富有
但却吝啬，败家，钱财都是不择手段的来
穷
也许是你还没经历过的其中一苦

我们没能选择出生在怎样的家庭
所以出生在穷的家庭也不是我们的错
但现在的世界总是很现实的
但这并不代表我们会穷一辈子
因为出生在穷的家庭
只代表你父母的财富
并不是你自己的
所以，未来的我们还是能富有的
只须要努力及肯吃亏
别怕辛苦

但我还是喜欢这样的家庭
至少比其他人吃的苦
适应能力也比较强吧？
重要的是保持乐观的思想^^

ps:我还是我

...

2009-10-20T02:33:00.003+08:00

现在已是凌晨了。。
但却不觉得想睡
又失眠了
也许是因为又回到了这里吧
突然好想喝喝闷酒。。
望着窗外的星空
还真让人觉得特别的寂寞

对不起，答应了你不再爱你，我却还没答应我自己

20 oct 09

2009-10-20T02:23:00.002+08:00

成绩出了
虽然没有不及格
但却对得到的成绩很不满意
也许真的还不够努力吧
是何时开始会在意成绩的呢？
也许是受它的影响吧。。

昨天对我来说是一个很重要特别的日子
曾经是吧！！
对我来说也是一大遗憾
那段日子是如此的怀念。。
不知现在的你如何呢？
是否过的快乐？
但愿你能得到你等了几年的东西

Think

2009-09-27T00:54:00.002+08:00

*Believe wat u believe
not wat u see wat u heard
most of the truth also is hide inside the lie
just all the anger,guilty, selfish make us cant see the truth

*Do all the thing tat make u no regret
no matter it is the best decision anot
as long as no regret...
Do all the thing u want(i mean legal)
dont always worry this worry tat
if not onli regret u get at the end...
Dont delay thing tat u want to do
no matter wat reason is it
dont say the is still have time in future
because our life really really very short onli....
Thing keep changing

*Separate doesn't mean tat i dont love
not seeing each other doesn't mean tat i hae forget

*Instinct=insane???
special =insane or freak???
No...
nothing can be equal or same in this world...
just like i will never be u or u will never be me..
thing always be wat it is...
wat it really is...

20sept 09

2009-09-20T03:27:00.004+08:00

Today finally finish 4subject
1more to go...
but have ten day rest before final test....
4subject=2die, 2 pass
today mp is i feel most easy de subject... haha
hope i can score in econ and mp and fim...
ahbo my qt and faf already die jor la...
God... u really need bless me....

And before mp test....
i have done something i didnt tot i will do so...
at least not now...
but sometime really say out wat u think and how u feel
is more better than u keep it inside ur heart...
although i dont noe wat is the ending for it...
but i didnt regret than i have do so... haha

p/s:我还是选择了让你知道。。感觉好多了

8 sept 09

2009-09-08T20:19:00.002+08:00

再过几天就要面对这学期的大考了.
与往常不一样
一个人温习,一个人发呆,一个人烦恼
没有鼓励,支持,扶持...

这几天的时间像是颠倒了似的。
每天天亮才睡，下午起床
像是在过美国时间。
唯一让我还清楚知道身在马来西亚的是那热到爆的天气
这几天的天气不知为何如此的炎热
几天前还经常都倾盆大雨
也许是在为下次来临的大雨做准备把

总感觉这次的压力特别大
不知是因为目标设的太大或因为这次是独自面对?
无论是什么理由
都还是必须熬过去...
没办法..
只好催眠自己... 不断告诉自己:我是行的....
加油吧!!!

射手座

2009-08-24T03:15:00.000+08:00

射手座(22/11 - 21/12)

乐观与忧愁：射手座人的内心不是外表看上去那么乐观的，因为喜欢看的远，容易担忧的事情也就多，在他们的字典里，即使现在好，也不一定代表未来好，有时候很多人觉得很好的一个工作或一个伴侣，他们很轻易的就会放弃掉，可能只是因为一个毫不起眼的小原因。所以，这样的外在表现，就让人们觉得他们不喜欢被某件事情或某个人束缚住，追求自由的，没有压力的感觉。

现实：常说射手座是追求梦想的人，但往往忽略了他们现实的一面，算计起来不会比处女座差哦，只是更高明更隐藏罢了。射手座人的梦想是必须建立在现实的基础上的，一般他们很少谈及自己的梦想，而是实际的去做一些向梦想靠拢的事情。如果可以借巧力完成的事情，决不会多花一点工夫。所以有时候射手座也容易给人耍小聪明的感觉。可是，不得不承认他们完成的还满不错。也许终其一生，他们都在考虑怎么巧妙的做一些事情，花最少的精力去达到最好的效果。所以，很多射手座看上去让人们会觉得很懒，但是其实他们的大脑可没有停下过思考现实的事情。

拒绝低俗：几乎所有的射手座内心都是骄傲的，其程度绝不亚于狮子座。只不过他们不会显现在脸上，外在的表现总是随和的，恰当的。可是内在有着极强的自尊心，敏感也情绪化。因为射手座人心中是骄傲的，所以他们拒绝低俗，不喜欢任何俗气的、粗鲁的事或人。如果可以，他们希望一切有关的事物，都是优雅的、高尚的，值得品味的。而真正能让他们觉得值得交朋友或谈恋爱的人是很少的，虽然表面上他们是很随和的。

多情：很多人说射手座多情，尤其是男性。其实在射手座人的心目中，对于爱情确实有理想化的倾向，和他们谈恋爱，是一件高难度的事情。他们非常讨厌俗气的人，所以你不能很物质或喜欢谈钱，但是他们又很现实，所以你不能一文不名，各方面也必须有一定的实力。物质与精神，你必须平衡的刚刚好，才让他们觉得你值得去爱。或者，你有足够的神秘感，可以让他们不知道你的缺点在哪里，而盲目的爱你。一般，当然是没有完美无缺的人的，所以，可能象金牛座这样永远会让射手感觉捉摸不透的闷闷的人，会非常吸引他们；或者象双子那样，足够机智，懂得察言观色，捕捉他们的情绪，才会让他们感觉到爱情的甜蜜。

一般射手的感情模式是，

第一阶段，你们还不熟悉，他（她）爱上了你，非常热情。

第二阶段，你们逐渐熟悉，而他（她）开始龟毛，整天挑剔你的毛病，无论是背地里还是当面。
如果你有幸通过他（她）的挑剔过程，基本挑剔出的毛病为零或者你把缺点保密的非常好；那么

进入第三阶段，他们就又是忠诚和热情的爱人了。但是基本能通过第二阶段的人非常少，所以有了射手多情一说。其实射手对恋人的挑剔，是源于对爱情的挑剔，对丧失自由感的恐惧。

射手座人的人生，往往是幸运的，因为他们是聪慧的、明朗的、通透的。与众不同，也许是他们终生追求的梦想，希望每一个射手人，可以找到他们的梦想！　　

人人都说射手座是感情的骗子，对爱情不尊重，只追求片刻的快感，是花心与冲满欲望的象征。朋友们…你们了解射手座最真实的一面吗？射手座是大孩子，天真与善良，遇到爱情时，可能让人感觉不认真，付出的比谁都少。可是，知道吗？射手座很想爱，却也很怕爱！刚开始他们只是慢慢的付出，谨慎的爱，好怕自己会受伤。可是在一句一句的爱，一天一天的相处下，射手座把带刺的防备丢掉，开始不顾一切的去爱他们所爱的人，在别人眼中，只是射手座为了达到某种目的而作的行动。可射手座不介意，他会在自己幸福的想象中陶醉，希望对方能感受自己的爱，想对方觉得与自己一齐是幸福的。在射手座爱上了一个人，他会把自己放到最后。有苦自己承担，可能会因为吵了一场小架而不开心，却也是最快认错，无论谁的错，他们都会包容，知道吗？射手座会因为深爱一个人而原谅他的背叛，会因为你的一句话付出很多。他们爱玩，在玩的同时，也希望把那一份好心情带给你，射手座是乐观的。　

人们总觉得射手座的世界很快乐，可是呢？射手座难过时没有人知道，他不想让别人可怜自己，射手座不坚强，可是很善良。在你难过时哄你开心，让你有依靠，分手后，他会哭者去想属于你们俩幸福的回忆，也不想爱的人因为同情而勉强和他一齐。他比谁都希望自己爱的人快乐幸福，却常常忽略了自己，全身都是伤也笑着告诉你，我很好不用担心。　　在所有人看到他的笑容以为他没事，却不知道失恋对射手座有多大伤害，华丽的外表下有一颗脆弱的需要别人了解和安慰的心。知道嘛？你的一点关心，心思细腻的射手座会记得你对他的好，把自己的爱毫无保留的送给你，射手座是不被了解的，可他们不会怨谁。他们会傻傻的认为，让我承担吧，别让别人也受到伤害。所以，不要让快乐的射手座痛苦，别让他们最有魅力的笑容成为掩饰痛苦的伪装，认真爱射手座。你会知道射手座的爱，是充满泪水的…

Meaningful

2009-08-20T23:10:00.001+08:00

香烟爱上火柴就注定被伤害...
不要轻易说爱...
许下的承诺就是欠下的债...

老鼠对猫说我爱你...
猫说你走开...
老鼠流泪走开...
谁也没有看见老鼠走后...
猫也留了一滴泪...
其实有一种爱情叫做放弃...

风筝一辈子只会为一根线冒险...
女人善受的是脸...
男人善受的是心...
在爱情的世界里...
没有谁对不起谁...
只有谁不懂珍惜谁...

遇到了真爱...
就不要轻易说离开...
要记得抓紧爱情...
而不是伤彼此的感情...
不要忘了真爱难寻..

No word to decrible

2009-08-20T02:19:00.003+08:00

I have been worry and sad fot something for bout 2 week...
since the day i cant get any reply and reject my call....
i aready noe something is going to happen....
and it have been prove liao....
there is no word to decrible my feeling now...
and now i totally can understand ur feel also....
everything is cause by me... i noe....
and i also noe i cant so selfish anymore....
no matter wat.....
but i still feel happy to wat u say to me....
i will never forget de.....
just wish tat i can get through this stage also...
maybe im look strong but act im not...
at least im not as strong as u....
u r amazing....
hontoni.....
ppl really onli will appreciate after they lost it....
why im be so stupid for such a long time....
and regret now.....
nothing can change now....
wat can i do...
just can wish for u.....

New Mice

2009-08-15T16:11:00.002+08:00

I have been long time didnt uploaded any blog liao...
Due to lazy and tired.... haha

Wednesday night, my class have a gathering togehter
we went to 2in1(steambot+bbq) near tesco there...
but tat day not all ppl are manage to involve...
so just have 17ppl go... include ex Ta3 class rep and some1's bf...
we really have a lot of fun tat day...
especially when we talk bout lk and sh.... haha
his reaction r really so cute.. keke
most of them also eat very less de....
so at the end left me and lk keep eating...
eat dao we also paiseh... haha
and still want to say we sure black listed by the tauke... =.=
and because of karmen suggestion.....
we have sing 2times birthday song to lk
even his birthday is December...
he was like so sweat.... haha

Today finally me willing to go and clean my whole room...
course is time to start prepare for final liao lo...
tat why need to have a good environment ah ma... haha
even lazy also is need to clean de la... keke
now my room look better.... keke

今天的心情

2009-07-30T01:59:00.002+08:00

你想要的
我却不能给你全部
我能给的
却不是你想要的
你的快乐除了他
还有我永远的守候。。。。

现在回想一下，
才发现自己真的很怕寂寞，
很怕独自一个人，
虽然常听人说单身很好，自由。。。
但真的如此的好吗？
但我却很讨厌及害怕这种感觉。。。
以前不会有此感觉，
自从你的离开，
真的让我有了很大的改变。。
真的真的很讨厌现在孤独寂寞的感受。。。

常在想能再次拥抱你，
再次有你在身边，
你能体会到这样的感受吗？
有个人还一直默默的在你身后，
保护着你，守护着你，支持着你，
担心着你，关心着你。。。。

ps:时间能倒退及停留吗？？？

adapted from angel blog

2009-07-18T14:38:00.002+08:00

如果你不爱一个人,

请放手.

好让别人有机会爱她.

如果你爱的人放弃了你,

请放开自己,

好让自己有机会爱别人.

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,

有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

人生中有许多种 .

但别让自己为一种伤害.

有些缘分是注定要失去的,

有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,

爱一个人不一定要拥有,

但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.

男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.

女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害,

我选择谎言;

如果谎言一种伤害,

我选择沉默;

如果沉默是一种伤害,

我选择离开.

如果失去是苦，

你怕不怕付出 ,

如果迷乱是苦，

你会不会选择结束,

如果追求是苦，

你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,

如果分离是苦，

你要向谁倾诉,

好多事情都是后来才看清楚,

好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

1st presentation of degree

2009-07-18T02:55:00.008+08:00

Our 1st presentation of degree...

Me,siaw huei(1002),Rui Ying(Nicole), Miss Shirley(tutor+lecturer),Joan,Yin Yin,Liang Khoon

Jog

2009-07-18T02:43:00.004+08:00

Some pict took when we were resting......

心情

2009-07-15T02:44:00.002+08:00

日期：2009年7月15
时间：2.45am
天气：良好
心情:高兴？伤心？绝望？（都有）

时间一天一天的过，
但却觉得一天一天的在浪费时间
为何？
因为不知现在有何人生目标
有何理想，
为什么而活着，
只能一直跟随着它的背影，
不断的追赶着，
默默的在身后守护着，
怕它受伤，被骗，迷惑，迷失方向
希望在它需要任何帮忙时，都能及时出现。。。

明白现在的它以有别个它。。。
明白现在的它已有别个它的帮忙，扶持，支持，安慰
明白现在的它的脑海，心及世界里只有它。。。
明白现在它的精神寄住是它
但偏偏我就是迷失在它的世界里，
找不到任何出口。。。
直到有天精疲力尽。。。
消失于这世上。。。

因为它，
我可以一直的被伤害，
因为它，
我不会再悲哀，
我还不想离开，
就让我静静傻傻一个在发呆

好胜?自卑?

2009-07-14T02:30:00.003+08:00

是因为自卑而开始好胜???
还是因为好胜可是却没有任何东西比人好而开始自卑呢???
最近总是在想自己真的有任何优点吗？
但，真的一个也想不到。。。
钱？没有。。
学业？差
样貌？差
知识？差

最近总是好像想争取些什么。。。
但又为了什么。。。。
也没本事。。。
总想有个人在身边聆听。。。
总想找个人倾诉。。。
但有过教训了。。。
也不敢再表露真感情了。。。
但是，一颗心能容的了多少东西呢!!
每当回头总会发现，原来一路上只有自己一人。。。
好想有个人陪在身边。。。
一起分享喜怒哀乐。。。
烦恼。。。
迷惑。。。

一年的时间
让我有了很大的变化。。。
变得开始爱想东想西了。。。
变得担心这担心那。。。
变得介意人家的看法了。。。
变得小心翼翼，胆小怕事了。。。
已经变得习惯用微笑掩饰一切。。。
还能回到过去的我吗？
累了。。。
真的好累了。。。
总想一切就将停下来，让一切就将结束。。。
那该多好。。。。
没我的存在，你或其他的一切都会变得更美好吧。。。
开始对自己的存在感到疑惑及迷惑。。。
人就像飞蛾
即使知道烛光会烧死自己。。。
但还是拼命的飞向烛光。。。
为何如此愚蠢？
也许只想找一细光芒或希望。。。

我不是最好，但愿也不是最差

Comment

2009-07-13T14:24:00.003+08:00

Today there is a ppl giving comment about me....
and i just realise im so much weakness....
and the ppl say till like really dont have any advantage...
but after thinking...
wat the ppl say is true also.....
really feel like very useless
although is not wat good thing...
but anyway, still thx to it tat let me realise about myself....
maybe really is time to change....
otherwise still is just another useless ppl in world....

ps: anyone who reading my blog, pls leave ur comment bout me also....
no matter good or bad... if dont want me noe who r u then just write in the chat box....
thx.....

F.U.S

2009-07-09T19:55:00.002+08:00

Wat is FUS???
haha... act is not good to say in here la...
So any1 that really feel interest de then go ask our old grandma samantha....
haha....

This few day dunno wat wrong wif me....
i keep feeling stress, nervous and no mood....
and stress for wat? DUNNO
nervous for wat??? DUNNO
why feel no modd?? DUNNO

wat wrong wat wrong...
but then wednesday....
because of something.... all my bad feel is gone and feel release...
really feel thank to tat ppl... ^^

This few day r so busy....
written report then presentation then exam....
somemore still need busy photostat de thing...
then suddenly also dunno who already photostat who not yet...
feel blur..... yikssssssssssss.................

already many day didnt sleep well and didnt more than 5 hour...
feel so tired liao...
this few day keep having nightmare....
at least 2or3 per night....
go away la.....
dont keep finding me....
hope after this week can let me have a nice sleep...

need start study my management liao...
sat test now still not yet start one pg...
waiting for die de la
same to QT....
totally dunno... and next week is the test...
kill me.....

ps:I will be a better man..i want to be rich and knowledgeable... but can I??haha....

K.A.M FastFoodGroup

2009-07-02T11:19:00.002+08:00

Wat is K.A.M???
haha...
is a group create by us when chatting....
tat the reason my gang have increase jor one new member(AngelTheng)...
K.A.M>>>>Kenny,AngelTheng,Mice.....
Since our new member and me and kenny also is so like to eat burger and mcd....
So we decide to open a FastFoodGroup lo...
haha.....
Especially our Angeltheng.... she is very crazy wif MCD de....
and she also is a very funny de gal....
one of it is she say other ppl belanja her, she will feel paiseh...
hehe
Anyway, hope she can enjoy the time wif us.....
hope our friendshio will be 4ever... haha
LiTheng
Nice to meet u, and thank for be our friend...
welcome to our group..^^

jogging

2009-07-01T01:04:00.002+08:00

Today pipu invite me to go jogging....
at first i reject de, course almost the time to go dinner....
but since kenny them also will go for jogging....
then i also agree lo....
really a long time no jogging jor....
i think got 3 or 4 year liao.....
the first thing we do is go kenny house to halau him down... haha
then we start from his house to the park...
before school start still tot want to come here wif n......
pipu is the most geng among us....
then since me and kenny also long time no jog...
so we keep stop down....
yin syn and peiyi more cham....
just jog awhile then sit there wait us finish jogging....==
but i think jogging also is a good thing to let me release stress too....

老鼠

2009-06-30T17:47:00.002+08:00

失明的老鼠，
漫无目的的生活，
胡乱的乱走乱闯，
之前所有的一切都是为了它而做而努力，
每天都为了看它微笑，
让它开心而拼命努力，
那现在呢？？？？

理由消失了，
曾经黑暗中唯一的光芒也消失了，
还有再次站起来的勇气吗？
也许有天会真的有能再给老鼠勇气的另一个它，
但是。。。。
还敢再次接受吗？
能再次承受吗？
这无底洞真的好黑好深。。。

影子

2009-06-30T17:43:00.002+08:00

影子是人一生挥不去，
一个不显眼，
不被重视，
不多人发现的东西，
所以我选着了成为影子，
默默的守候，
默默的凝望，
默默的跟着影子的主人走一辈子。
也许影子一辈子也不会被主人瞧一眼，
但它依然对主人不离不弃。
喜怒哀乐都在她身边支持鼓励

NOTICE

2009-05-06T02:38:00.001+08:00

photo for the post exam and ending pre will be upload few day after...
due to technical problem... haha

ENDing Pre

2009-05-06T02:13:00.002+08:00

Today is the last exam paper in my foundation year..
(if i success to process to degree in coming de june)
keke...
the time pass so fast leh..
like tat i have been spent jor 3 sem de time wif my frenz and dear....
really really so fast....
the 1st gang i join when in UTAR is Dear, YinSyn, weiwei, sean, and Soon min...
even till sem 3 jor we still is a gang...
the oni diffence is my gang become more member jor....
Thomas, kenny,samantha,peiyi,jia hong, pipu,rick,yoke kwan,sony...
haha...
although soon min sem 3 already not so free to always join us jor..
but once he free he still come join us....

Today we have our dinner at GKH..
we having steambot...
12 ppl is invovle....
rick didnt join
course he want to paktuo wif his dear....
we all are so crazy today...
naybe is too happy gua...
we talk and laugh till so loud...
until other customer always keep looking at us and laugh....
esspecially our mountain pig2... haha...
the louder voice in UTAR kampar...

we finish our dinner at 9pm...
after tat all boy go for DOTA
except me.... 5boy go
then gal go to KAM JIN yam cha...
but include me...
feel weird leh... haha
we have almost 2 sem didnt come here yam cha jor lo...
still remember sem 1 always come for Jumbo...
today we all order juice for超级大大杯...
Im the first to finish it.. always de...
haha...
then very funny de is peiyi, samantha and weiwei at there compete see who finish it first...
they look are so funny tat time..
because of many ice, after finish keep shouting its cold....

then we back home after the yam cha.....
few more day then is our genting trip jor..
hope we can have more more memorable and sweet de memory at there....
since we dunno still got so frenz after degree anot...
looking forward to my genting trip...
i want spend my time wif dear lo...^^

EXAM

2009-05-06T02:05:00.003+08:00

COST ACCOUNTING
This subject actually is not very hard to study......
even it test also not very hard onli..
i really noe how to do de ah....
got a big change to get A de....
BUT....
careless kill me...
i didnt read clearly for question 1....
die lo....
i feel tat my A become more more more far from me jor....
wat can i do??
the paper also already hand up lo....
haiz.....

FINANCE
this subject i feel quite hard de...
not hard for calculation...
but the theory..
43mark theory and 57mark calculation in today paper....
calculation i think no problem la...
can get bout 45 and above de...
but my theory part.......
27mark totally dunno wat it talking....
wat the hell...
is so difficult leh...
when read the question and wat in my mind is....
did we study all of his before????
haha... prepare to die la..
Finance hard to get A de la....
hope still got B la...... pray for me...
haha

My Hand...

2009-05-06T01:57:00.003+08:00

Oh My God....
I hurt my right hand just the nect day of 1st exam..
luckily still got five more day just having my second also is last de exam...
i hurt it seriously.....
course the 1st and 2nd day i hurt it, my hand totally cant use to write or take thing..
imaging if second day need to exam....
DIE loh..... lol..
luckily this few day also got my dear take care of me....
thanks lo dear....
so i decide to belanja my dear steambot and Jumbo when the last day of exam...

2009-04-29T20:37:00.002+08:00

i agree...
we dislike a ppl not must be tat ppl got did wat to us anot...
thing he do or act is we cant accept de then dislike la...
no matter u think wat u did is right or not...
tat ur problem...
and we dislike a ppl will not because a ppl say tat ppl bad thing in front of us of wat..
we still rational...
we still noe to think...
time have prove many thing.....
wat we see wat we heard...
dont always think in u concept in right then other ppl sure can accept it...
dislike then is dislike not everything can explain...
onli some1 still willing to suffer in this kind of relationship tat the ppl is enjoy...

No mood

2009-04-19T21:07:00.001+08:00

I think will less or wont be update blog recently...

due to many thing happen recently...

so no mood to update blog...

and need to study....

nowadays everyday also live wif fear, sad,worry, stress...

sound not like me jor....

really 1st tme feel so.....

Black Friday

2009-04-17T19:44:00.003+08:00

Today really is so unlucky for many ppl....
1st is my frenz got problem...
2nd is the place we sing k de sofa spoil jor...
3rd is my own problem....

1st problem have settle temporary.....

2nd is sing k de not yet settle....
the worker say he need to see back the cctv to see s accidently ot purposely...
the notice there writen tat sofa spoil is rm1800...
but i think they wont really ask us pay rm1800...
how to say it also not very serious...
so he say will call us tomoro..

3rd is me de...
im so sad today....
although at first i ont noe wat will happen...
but i ready whole day feel not very well...
not sick de feeling not well la...
is feel like something bad will happen
course my 6sense also quite strong...
and my feeling become true again....
just hope tat tomoro the thing i get is the thing i want....
otherwise i really dont noe wat should i do.....

Without you!
I dont noe where to go....
I cant choose....
So confuse.....
I have my own dream...
I have my own thing...
But i hope is share wif u....
so bad im gonna scream.......

mAmAk

2009-04-16T17:06:00.003+08:00

today when lecture class... doraemon complain tat we always didnt ask her for yam cha....

so we decide to yam cha tonight...

we never tot tat even kenny also will join us yamcha...

haha.. kenny u naughty jor la....

we chatting from 9.30pm-2.10am just back to westlake...

wao.... is it crazy? act is ady normal for us.... haha...

although in the half way got something happen and make till every1 not in mood...

but luckily it dissapear very soon....

our drink tea night r not been spoil...

six ppl yam cha but the drink and food are full till no place to put anymore...

six ppl de drink and food.... many leh^^

sam, why u keep hiding urself?
Thomas mention fork as senjata... keke

hope this moment never gone

Sushi Day 2nd

2009-04-16T16:36:00.007+08:00

early of the morning, mountain pig 1 sms me and ask wat tme cycle to uni..

course rick not going....

since i heard they want cycle...

so i suggest go to sushi king again today...

when we start our tutorial....

the sky star raining..... and mountain pig start complaining...

haha... so after class we decide go to eat at cafeteria..

but once we finish our breakfast the rain stop jor...

feel like the rain of God is playing a joke wif us...

since all also dont want go later de lecture.....

so we decide to go sushi king now....

we r so lucky today......

just wait jor 30min++

yesterday we wait for 2hour leh....

but today we cant get a good seat...

therefore we need to go out and rampas sushi tat we 1... hehe...

At last let us eat till all the sushi we want to eat...

feel so happy... haha

even sleeping also will smile....^^

the sky dark till the mountain also cant see

sam,why yin syn so scare of u? wat have u done...

Sushi Day

2009-04-15T03:50:00.002+08:00

this week is the sushi king promotion week....
so we have decide to go to eat sushi on tuesday...
and kenny say need to eat till po chan just shuang.... haha
today after class we straight away go to tesco's sushi king...
we have been waiting outside for 2 hour...
Due to many ppl potong barisan...
all also moral fail de....
after waiting so long... go till inside mostly of the thing we want to eat also just make few..
always come out those not tasty or is cheap de....
so today just eat jor 6 plate....
tak puas hati la.... haha
so now we thinking whether thursday want to go again anot...
since mountain pig 1 no need to worry the money to trip jor...
hehe... so now see who still want follow us go la....

today get the midterm mark for the cost accounting...
so pik chik la....
answer correct then enough la... calculation still give wat mark la..
like spm like tat then good lo....
answer wrong jor just see ur calculation to give mark...
because of didnt write out the calculation then lost jor 4 mark lo....
if not can get full mark for tat part also de.....
haiz.... so every1, in final wat calculation also write out...
today we saw till out assignment mark is 19/20....
dunno is it real anot la...
so amazing... haha...

april12

2009-04-13T01:39:00.004+08:00

today i have make roti canai for my lunch....

dont noe why today fail to make it at first..

after fail jor few slide it just success..

so weird la....

although look not good...

but the taste not bad o...

need to start study hard liao la...

exam is coming jor...

hope to get better result....^^

april11

2009-04-11T23:50:00.002+08:00

Due to some incident....
The date of genting tri have change to May 10-13..
So sorry to kenny choo o..
Because the changes, kenny not manage to go....
Luckiy we still same course o kenny...haha
And because of the new date, yin syn pipu and sean and not sure will go jor..
so the final decision is just book jor 1 room..
so if suddenly all can go...
Hor hor... realy need sleep toilet jor..... keke
now confirm go de just got 7 ppl....

K la... dont want to continue to say jor...
if not i will feel angry again..... haha

Never ever say 'PAST' this word n front of me.........................

April09

2009-04-10T01:43:00.002+08:00

Today dont noe which stupid guy take my bike without ask or inform again...
is not de 1st time jor...
is the 4th time... WTF
it make till me cant go to uni today...

today the exam timetable finaaly have out...
because i need the timetable to decide when go to genting.. haha
we have decide to go genting on 6 may-9 may....
when decide to online booking...
just reliase tat first world, genting,resort dll hotel de online booking also full liao...
just left theme park hotel got 1 type de room left...
luckily is the type we decide to rent...
so so lucky...
now confirm go de got 9 ppl...
Me, dear, samantha, wei wei,sony, kenny,thomas, pei yi and jia hong..
3 ppl not yet confirm..
yin syn, pipu and hong en....
pik chik la....
say tell me the answer tonight....
and i wait for whole night also no reply..
and the Gbrother more make me pik chik...
lucky kill ppl is against the law....
hard to imagine if he sleep wif us wat will happen on this trip....
although i think A girl have choose a wrong choice wrong decision wrong ppl..
but wat can we do.... is her choice..
we just can acc her when she sad and facing problem..
also dont noe why he will got so many gals like even already got few gf....
attidute also not very good, study also not very good... hobby also not very good...
why ah? hard to understand....
does he is really love u? did he?
out of our control... just can say hope she right....

april07

2009-04-08T02:29:00.002+08:00

Nth special today..
so not mch to talk and write...

Today bar list out jor...
so lucky no my name again...
so worry will kena..
course ponteng jor few class... keke
after bar list out...
sure will have alot of student wont attend the class jor de...

april06

2009-04-07T01:03:00.003+08:00

We all have been tipu by our cost accounting lecture today....
we having a 10 marks test today....
we need to sit by group member but no discussion...
we study so hard the day before test...
is an 1 hour test...
when after half an hour she say tat can discuss among group member..
and she will random choose one of the group member to mark..
and the mark will same for all group member...
the lecture is so so wu liao la.....
make till us also dont noe copy who de... and not much time left also...
all r so nervous... and 1 group hand up late and been scold by teacher..
because their group member not yet finish copy... haha...

tonight we go to yam cha again....
but little bit difference than before de...
course today quite alot ppl also got join us...
pei yi, jia hong, even the mountain pig(yin syn) 2 also got out...
usually onli 4 or 5 ppl out.....
but today got 12 ppl out leh...
onli 1 ppl is extra de.. never tot the ppl will be there..
today mamak de service is so terrible la....
i order mee goreng....
wait for 1 hour also not yet come...
and when it come is BIHUN GORENG...
bull shit de la....

kla... is time to sleep la...
Gd night everybody... hehe

black sunday... -.-

2009-04-06T00:26:00.001+08:00

wat a bad day for me....
i have been stomachache for the whole morning....
spent most of the time in TOILET..
just want to say WTF... haha
also dont noe eat till wat dirty food...
or maybe is supper eat too much jor... haha

today i tot i'm going to have my dinner alone de...
course today dear follow friend de car back..
so cant manage to eat dinner wif me...
but when i want go out to buy dinner.....
the rain start to fall...
i have waiting 3hour something for the rain to stop...
when i reach shop lots just found tat many place also not open...
maybe is because all go for "QING MIN" gua..
then i went back wif a hungry stomach...
hungry is suffer than anything... for me la...
i tahan the hungry till 9something..
then my gang have back from hometown
i ask them to acc me go out to mamak have my dinner...
although not so nice as wat i want to eat at first...
but better than hungry....
hope tat no next time again...

Kampar Utar Life

2009-04-04T14:57:00.000+08:00

Kampar here for some ppl maybe will free very boring...
course here not much entertainment like KL...
here dont have shopping center, cinema, da ji chang...
the onli shopping center here have is TESCO... haha
and i realise something... kampar seem like is anti MCD de...
course here got pizza got KFC got MyFC got sushi king but dont have MCD
It is the life here boring to u?
For me is still not bad.. course im not person tat very like to shopping
But like the moment drink tea chatting wif friend...
and u will feel the time pass so fast....
just like me, so fast already almost finish foundation...
so hope tat although degree we not same course...
but we still can have dinner and yam cha together...

3 more week then is the final test for foundation...
although is onli 2 subject for last sem...
but is not easy also... course alot of calculation
quite confuse......
hope every1 get better result for this sem....
and hope all can success process to degree...

act me and my gang have already plan all the plan after exam... haha
so here is wat we plan....
1st day of finish exam>>>
1) having dinner at nai ma there... course we have long time didnt go jor
2) go KAM JING to have a jumbo and have a free show to watch... haha
3) go to mamak(ABC) for a midnight chatting....

2nd day of finish exam>>>(plan by mountain pig samantha)
1) we will having water game/water balloon(suggest by samantha)
2) we will have flour and egg as side dish.. keke
3) we will have BBQ a night and watermelon competition... hehe

The last plan is we will going to genting for 4day3 night...
and we will celebrate some1 de birthday there...
this will be the second time i celebrate birthday for frenz at genting...
1st time is a gal. 2nd time will be a boy...

Many ppl will ask me tat u every year also go genting, wont boring de meh?
course even i go also not go in to themepark de...
act is hard to explain de la... every ppl got a place they like to go..
at there i feel very relax and comfortable...
maybe is because the weather there very nice gua...
and i enjoy the time spend if frenz....
all crazy around.... just like 1 of my friend...
after she reach there she become crazy than usual de...
i miss 2007 de genting trip...
course that year we went for christmas tat week...
we went for 6day5night.. very sot leh...
tat trip is all boy but 1 gal... look so funny...
dont noe she feel bored tat time anot.. course tat time she still a very quiet de ppl...
she is the 1 we celebrate birthday for her...

Anyway just hope this time de trip also will be successful... ^^

2second

2009-04-03T17:19:00.000+08:00

BLOG... for me is still a very very new and strange de thing for me
but this is only place tat can let u release ur feeling and thing u want to share...
course sometime is hard to say out something face to face....
my friend always also say tat im hyperactive and very noisy de ppl....
really im such ppl? always also got so much thing to say?
course when facing a ppl i will never know wat to say and do...
even myslf till now also dont noe why...
but the person still very important for me...
today finally finish all the assignment... we have burn so many day of midnight oil...
and can have a very short short break before the final batle is come final exam
the way e and my uni friend release stress is quite funny....
planning all activity or trip when sem break even tat tomoro is exam day...
and they always blame me for mae till them no mood to revision course to exited...
so sweat la them....
i have a long time never go trip wif my gang jor... so miss the time when secondary....
lucily is the friend i knew is also almost the same type de ppl...
they all are so funny and sometime wat they do u wil get shock after u saw... haha
now i just hope tat i can get a good result for the last sem in foundation..
and also wish tat will have a sweet memory wif my friend....
TA4 all the best and Good Luck^^

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