Saturday, September 11, 2010

分手

从一开始的互不熟悉,到如今的彼此了解;
从一开始浅薄的想念,到如今深深的眷恋;
从最初很在意在你面前的形象,到现在的毫无顾忌;
从当初的不知道该怎么爱你,到现在不知道该如何分离。
一路走来,经历了很多,我们也都付出了很多。

如果.....
如果我们真的分手,
你会怎样?
如果我们分手了,
我一定会感到很寂寞无助,
耍性子闹脾气的时候会感到闷得慌,
电话短信都不知道该发给谁。

如果我们分手了,
我一定会恨自己的自以为是,
原本总以为,
不管我们交错多少次,
总可以再找到时间地点,
重新牵起彼此的手,
可却只是自己的一厢情愿罢了。

如果我们分手了,
在一起那些痛苦的记忆会无限缩小甚至蒸发,
而幸福的回忆却只会日益膨胀,
到最后甚至忘记为什么分手,
仅仅只是想你,
想你,
想你。

如果我们分手了,
就算删掉你的手机号码,
我一定还是能倒背如流,
在夜深人静的时候红着眼眶,
慢慢按下那些键,
却始终找不到理由拨出去,
即使你淡出我的生命,
却仍然占据我的记忆。

如果我们分手了,
我会把你送给我的东西,
写给我的文字,
统统藏起来,
然后在夜深人静的时候不断拿出又放好,
想看又不敢再碰触。

如果我们分手了,
我一定还是不会删掉那些照片,
摘掉那根红绳,
因为曾经的每一次争吵都让它们来来去去,
可是这一次如果我删了,
我delete了,
它们就不再回来了。

如果我们分手了,
我不想再看见你,
因为我害怕那时的你在我的眼前,
我还是想牵牵你,
抱抱你,
亲亲你,
但是我已经没有资格了。

如果我们分手了,
我还是想你和你做朋友,
这样在我想你的时候,
我可以想着还能找你,
虽然我也许并不会这么做。

如果我们分手了,
我一定会害怕出门,
因为无论到哪里,
都有我们的回忆,
背着我牵着我到处乱逛的你,
看着我流泪会陪我一起伤心的你,
陪着我发疯陪着我快乐的你,
几乎把所有的零花钱都花在我身上的你,
因为给我准备了惊喜而自己开心半天的你,
在凛冽的寒风又或者飘泊的雨中还是会等我的你,
因为我乱玩,乱吃东西,胡作非为而大发雷霆的你,
每一次都被我搞的崩溃却依旧每一次都原谅我包容我来找我的你。

遍地留下了自己的痕迹,
最后却跑掉的你。
如果,

如果,
如果我们真的分手,
我一定不想的。

请记得,
如果我们分手了,
我还是等你的电话,
回你的短信,
在你需要我或是想见我的时候出现,
你是我的独家记忆,

一直在心底。

love u, habi

8129.521.131.1314

Friday, September 10, 2010

Cold day

I'll just pretend to hug u, until u get here....
today whole day was such a good weather...
because is was raining and cold cold wind...
but i wish tat i can hugging u in this cold cold weather...
it make me miss those time...
hidding in blanket together....


Your hugs are the best ever....
is the feel tat i can never forget...
the way u hug me tight..
is was just like afraid of me will dissapear..
it make ppl feel sweet and warm....
hope tat someday the hug will be back together.....
i will be waiting...

love u, habi

8129.521.131.1314

HeartXXX

Today finally saw u wif him liao....
The feel of looking at u wif him...
is so hard to find a word to describe
totally cant breathe at all....
it was like u fall from the top of the sky to the ground...
the painful is cant be imagine....
it was like ur body break into many many many part....

love u, habi

8129.521.131.1314

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Final exam


Have anyone see me will stress for en exam before?
totally not really...
even is also is just worry abit abit tat will fail anot....
This time is the first time i feel so stress for my exam...
It really make me stress till cant breath and cry for it....
There was so many thing i dun noe in this sem de subject
im totally blank...
i feel so scare....
I tot to find someone to study together...
but i cant really find dao one to study together...
i keep try hard to focus...
but still alot of thing in my mind keep distract me....
Im feel so helpless now.....
Im feel so lost now.....
im also thx for someone tat willing to chat wif me yesterday....

habi....

8129.521.131.1314

Night

I hate to stay in my room alone...
The feel is so scary...
It make ppl feel helpless...
Feel lost...
I hate the feel...
Tat why recently mostly i spend my night at keep walking and walking at outside...
keep visit to westlake...
To shop lot
or even sha sha de stand downstair u
i just dun want to go back to my room...
>.< T.T
Sry...
really cant control my feel anymore...
even tot i keep telling to myself
i stil fail to do it...
i still is hug u jor....
i really dun want u to go...
just hope u to be my habi 4ever....

love u, habi

8129.521.131.1314

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Memories






Never mind

How many ppl really can understand the feel of Never Mind????


我原谅你喜欢上了别人,因为爱情是自由的。

我原谅你对我的忽视,因为爱情需要宽容。

我原谅你的所有的错,因为我爱你。

我曾经说的‘无所谓’,其实都是在掩饰内心的孤独与寂寞,只是你未曾注意过。

很在意你,在意到让我害怕,所以找个借口让自己不陷下去。


所有的“无所谓”都是因为太在乎,

你可曾知道? 即使分手,也还是会想起你的好。

这些全都在我的意料之外,但不后悔。

谢谢你曾经带给我的感动,谢谢!


“无所谓”,看似简单的三个字,却隐藏了好多难以让人发现的东西。

那种心理……无法言语…… 明明很在乎,明明心很痛,却要装作无所谓。

需要多大的承受力啊。

也许伪装才能看清一切,伪装才能保护自己。

说出一句“无所谓”需要很大的勇气。

隐藏的脆弱,掩埋的孤寂,几人能看清?


也许真的“无所谓” ……

无所谓的心酸,

无所谓的孤寂,

无所谓的人生,

因为太“所谓”而“无所谓”。

“无所谓”--一种无法言语的痛!

8sept10

At the end....
Today me still is go to find u liao...
Im really too miss u liao...
But i still is didnt manage to see dao ah bii them....
For the first time..
we chit chatting by sitting outside ur house de staircase....
it really feel good to have a chat wif u..
it just like we usually chat like tat...
the feel is so warm....

U say got how much happy then will have how much sadness...
but i dun think so...
i do believe it not balance de....
cause i will try my best to let u have happiness more than sadnesss many many many..
until when u compare u will realise the sadness is just a so small de part....
i hope tat ur life is full of happiness....

I noe everytime exam coming
u also will study till very stress and pik chik de...
i so hope i can beside u...
calm u down
help u massage....
even is u want to talk like scold ppl...
just release ur negative mood...
i will accept it all...
at least make u feel better abit..
so tat u can have a better mood to continue ur stuy...
i noe u very worry and panic now
i noe u scare ur cgpa will drop again....

No matter wat...
dun push urself too over k?
must have enough rest and drink more water and eat....
so tat u r full of energy to study...

whenever u feel too stress...
u can find me anytime...
i will be there for u anytime...

habi
Gd luck for ur study and all the best....
u got my support...

8129.521.131.1314

有种想见不能见的伤痛♥


Miss.....
I do miss alot of thing now...
I miss every moment tat spend together wif u...

miss study together...
miss cook and eat together...
miss take care of hamster together...
miss the time we chatting....
miss the time we hang out together....
miss the day we wearing the same watch

There are so many thing i want to tell u...
There are so many thing i want to done wif u...
There are so many place i want to go wif u...
There are so many food i want to cook for u...

50days...
maybe is just a very short period...
but for me i do feel like we have go through alot of thing...
this is the most happy moment...
u r the one save me out from my fear...
and now i still believe tat u will be the one....
so the ticket will waiting u to collect someday without expired day

I noe u have decide to give the chance to who...
just so hope tat u can rethink...
even just for a moment also feel glad....

i will keep all the promise tat i promise to u
no matter is when we together de those
or
after we break up de...
hope this time u keep ur promise too....
i believe u....

Love u, habi

8129.521.131.1314

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Waiting

Phone never rang again
Ur msg is lesser and lesser
how many night
i was feel so lonely
how many night
my tear drop for u
I didnt find u often already
It doesnt mean i forget or dun care anymore
Is just im waiting silently

I noe should not disturb u...
Just sometime cant hold on anymore
Wat i feel now is
feel Lost
feel Scare
feel Lonely
feel Unsecure

Im back

Really been a long long period didnt come updated my blog jor...
Really alot of thing happen recently...
Happy de
Sad de
Heartbroken de
stress de
It was too too alot...
but now mainly is unhappy de thing....
somemore is almost my final now...
is trying hard to focus on my revision....
it make me like cant breath at all....

and i realise something...
there was really not much luck in my whole life
but no matter how bad luck am i
God...
i just wish tat this time u give me luck and win this time...
i beg u...
i noe i never believe in god
but for this time... i do...
i pray to u.... thx

Sem break is coming too liao...
but i hate the sem break
nth to do while sem break
then sure will thk this thk tat
this sem break going to suffer alot too...
tot can go trip wif u...
i even have plan for it already..
but thing just happen... >.<

Friday, May 14, 2010

亲爱的

走你常走的路,去你常去的地方。仿佛你还在身边。
影子是我现在的状态。。

当心再次原意全心接受一人时,却也是你离开的时候。。

亲爱的,好想好想你,好想好想累的时候能抱抱你……

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

陌生与绝情的眼神

如果问我,什么眼神是最恐怖的?
是魔鬼的眼神?凶残的眼神?还是绝望的眼神?
我会答。。是绝情的眼神,一对绝情又陌生的眼神。。
当他/她决定放弃这段感情时,他/她决回不再应为任何理由而向你转回头
在他/她的眼神里展示的眼神,是你从来没看过的。。
一对从她眼里看不出有任何关于你和她存在的眼神。。
一对令你感觉好像从来不曾认识她的眼神。。
一对令你知道再多的努力也挽回不了她的眼神。。
一对令你感觉她的心亦没有你的存在的眼神。。
一对将来的你发生什么事而她也不想管的眼神。。
那种感觉,就像过往你们的一切一切,
在一刹那间可以直接从她的记忆里删除得一干二净。
难道以往的感情可以那么容易忘记?还是她的眼神出卖了你。。
其实是她不愿再让自己心软,心软的放弃她想决定的决定。。
为了她自己的幸福,她宁愿让自己出卖自己的眼神
也不让自己的眼神出卖自己的幸福。。

但她永远不知道。。
他的眼泪,留着的是。。
曾经是她和他幸福的眼神。